Feelings

Life is all about moments... Some better than the others... but it's importanto to say when life is just going the way we +/- planned.

I am peaceful and this is good to feel!

Expression

Today while talking with one of my "friends" I remembered a very nice, funny and true expression from one of my french best friends:

"la culture c'est comme la confiture: moins on en a et plus on l'étale"...

So please spare Marmelade! LOL

Take Care

Surprise

Sometimes we think we know people and we don't...
And sometimes we think we know ourselves and we just don't... Is it good? don't know...
Is it normal? I think it only shows that life goes on and no Reality is fixed! Let's enjoy life and feel good! :)

Hugs and take care!

TIred

We can say that I am usually a very positive and enthusiastic person.
Have to say that due to the recent less positive moments I have had and also to the lack of rest have been making my "good" temper harder and harder to keep.

Today besides feeling really tired (exhausted would be the right word) I feel nervous!
Why do people think I have to have a maternal attitude towards my mother! The question is: what am I doing for the last 2 months? do I have then not to let her be alone ewver again?
I thought that at my age I should have my own life but apparently NO!!

The other question that comes into my mind would be: were I married, would people make all those questions? would everyone try to give all the advise???

Please could you for a little second think about MY OWN well being??? maybe I am being too demanding... I am a woman... afterall...

Take care and please stop judging the others

Another left

Apparently we are in a Dying period... After Mickael Jackson, my dad, I am going to another funeral tomorrow, and of course Patrick Swayze!

Rest in Peace PS as you deserve it after such a long suffering.

I have to thank you for all the wednesday afternoon I spent watching again and again Dirty Dancing and trying to do the same! I am sure that with a great teacher like you I could do much better than I did with my lamp! ... lol

Thank you for the dreams you inspired with your (2) films (the only ones I could remember) and for having inspired my teenager spirit for dancing and romantic stories. (mix of Ghost and Dirty Dancing)

RIP

The other day I went to have a coffee (as 3times a day) and they gave me one sugar with a quote from a certain writter I cannot remember the name. I just found the sentence so cute and true that I should share it:

"I am looking for Someone to talk to. Someone who still knows how to smile"...

Let's try to think about the positive aspects of our lives as happiness is in our minds ans is never "real"(nothing is perfect)...

C U

Rest in Peace Dad.

No words...

I am going tomorrow... going to face the truth I tried to escape for too long now...
Even though I won't admit I know that I will have soon to speak about you in the past! I won't admit that I will miss you so much!
You are not perfect however you were allways next to me in bad and good moments... with you bad character, your non demago sentences but saying the truth or at least your reality without trying to be nice.
I learned to know you even though communication was not really our strength....
You taught me how to ride a bicycle, taught me to be demanding with myself 1st and then with the others, you taught me to be honest, look in the eyes and shake hands. How to be pride of myself just because it's me as long as I follow those old rules.
You protected me from my fears....

I learned to love you behond your bid defaults such as you did with me.
Learned how to respect your decisions even though I disagreed with them and be sure that this one is the hardest to accept but I have to...
This will be my last present to you... you are still here but I am afraid to say I already miss you.... Love you

PS- just for "fun" one of your favorite songs:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HGC003Xz3CY

Nostalgie

13 ans demain... 13 ans déjà et même si tout est passé je ne peux m'empêcher d'y penser.
J'y pense et sens une boule au fond de moi sûrement liée au regret et à l'amertume de voir mon Rêve brisé.. un rêve, un project qui semblait si simple impossible en réalité...
Je ressens un mélange de tendresse face à l'innocence des intentions, de la rage de m'en souvenir année après année et de m'être attachée à cette pensée...
Refaire des projects me semble aujourd'hui utopique... c'est le prix de l'innocence perdue...

Une fois de plus no regrets juste un peu de nostalgie

Birthday

Today is a very Important Day!
my little daughter, my little thing, my big Love, my everything is 4 years!!
She was born on June 24th, 05 and I only met her 3/4 months later!
Happy Birthday my Pirucinhas you already had your extra lunch!

Bad Day or Bad Times?

Some people say Life is a cycle! What goes around comes around etc...
I really are more and more doubtful! I also doubt that we allways get what we deserve... luck has a lot to do with that!
But if life is a cycle then my question is - how long is which one?

Hope the wind will change...soon...

It's all about Philosophy

On the other day someone told me this very special sentence that I could not keep only for myself and I needed to share it with you:

Opinions are like asses: all have one but they all stinks...

Isn't it a deep thought???

Take care!

4 years

I was to write a post about this aniversary on March 20th however times flies and inspiration was about zero! It is not much better now but this aniversary is too important for me not to write a single word about it.
It means for me a lot of good and bad points.
4 years ago I arriveds quite aware of the hard time I could pass through but with a dream with a lot of inocent stars in the eyes. I trully believed that my fairy tale was becoming true and that the well known sentence "and they lived happy forever and ever" was the part I was starting to live.
As you all know it was not really the case and I just miss the inocence I won't have again.
No regrets for the rest. Good and bad moments, memories but at least experience and a certainty: that was not what I expected and above all what I wanted.

I do belive that after a fairy tale it is hard to start something again, believe, trust, give, share, communicate just because we don't want to be hurt again but on the other hand it becomes easier to express what we really need.... that's the good point of experience.

Life will let me know whether I will stay here and also whtehr I can start now livng the fairy tale or if I still have to learn...

C U.
Music of the day:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JqrwxfvOwNQ&NR=1

Another Music

On the other day I heard this music that made me go back in time when lirfe was much diferent ... when I was in another country and still at the University... good times, good memories....
I needed to share it here...

ANOUK "Nobody's Wife"

"Nobody's Wife"I'm sorry for the times that I made you scream
for the times that I killed your dreams
for the times that I made your whole world rumble

for the times that I made you cry
for the times that I told you lies
for the times that I watched and let you stumble

It's too bad, but that's me
what goes around comes around, you'll see
that I can carry the burden of pain
'cause it ain't the first time that a man goes insane
and when I spread my wings to embrace him for life
I'm suckin' out his love, 'cause I, I'll never be nobody's wife

I'm sorry for the times that I didn't come home
left you lyin' in that bed alone
was flyin' high in the sky when you needed my shoulder

you're like a stone hangin' round my neck, see
cut it loose before it breaks my back, see
I've gotta say what I feel before I grow older I'm sorry but I ain't gonna change my ways

you know I've tried but I'm still the same
I've got to do it my own way It's too bad, but hey, that's me
what goes around comes around, you'll see
that I can carry the burden of pain
'cause it ain't the first time that a man goes insane
and when I spread my wings to embrace him for life
I'm suckin' out his love, I, I'll never be nobody's wife

It's too bad, but hey, that's me
what goes around comes around, you'll see
that I can carry the burden of pain
'cause it ain't the first time that a man goes insane
and when I spread my wings to embrace him for life
I'm suckin' out his love, I, I'll never be nobody's wife

I just heard this music today as it was the first time, and for the first time it meant something to me...

Take time to realize,
That your warmth is
Crashing down on in.
Take time to realize,
That I am on your side
Didn't I, Didn't I tell you.

But I can't spell it out for you,
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I cant spell it out for you

If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other
and will never find another
Just realized what I just realized
we'd never have to wonder
if we missed out on each other now

Take time to realize
Oh-oh I'm on your side
didn't I, didn't I tell you.
Take time to realize
This all can pass you by
Didn't I tell you

But I can't spell it out for you,
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I cant spell it out for you

If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other
and will never find another
Just realized what I just realized
we'd never have to wonder
if we missed out on each other now

It's not always the same
no it's never the same
if you don't feel it too.
If you meet me half way
If you would meet me half way.
It could be the same for you

If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other
and will never find another
Just realized what I just realized
we'd never have to wonder
if we missed out on each other now

Colbie Caillat - Realize
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pNrWiOFOO28

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2009

Hi everyone,

Aparently I takes me longer and longer to come and leave some little message to the courageous ones who come here...
I am really satisfied to see that 2008 is over! In fact we are some people for whom 2008 were mostly negative! For me the best aspect of the past year was really my eyes surgery...

Anyways I am sure that 2009 will compensate us all and giove us all success and everything we want, wish and deserve!

Is it a best way to start the year than travelling for holidays??? I will start this way as starting tomorrow I will be travelling somewhere in Europe (for a week)... I am sure it will be great as destination seems more than attractive!

A Great year to you all and see you... read you soon!