Fears part 2....

Why do I have the feeling that You are running away from mee? do I scare you? are you fed up with me?
So many questions into this little brain that get me so confuse.... would love to speak about it with you but I cannot... words don't come out and I am alsnost sure you don't want to speak about it...
Don't make fun on me....

Fears...

It's always good to give advise - and I am good at that- to your friends like "fear should be used only to move on etc". However it is always very easy to say it rather than doing it!

I am just afraid to move on! Don't want to suffer again and because of that I decided last year not to be involved again.. at least not emotionally for the next 25 years! Almost a year have passed and I've been quite good with this decision.

But you showed yup in my life! You were not in my plans and I am just scared! Simply scared without knowing whether you think of me the same way and essentially wondering wether it shouldn't be safer to fly away from you...

Just wondering....

Feelings

Life is all about moments... Some better than the others... but it's importanto to say when life is just going the way we +/- planned.

I am peaceful and this is good to feel!

Expression

Today while talking with one of my "friends" I remembered a very nice, funny and true expression from one of my french best friends:

"la culture c'est comme la confiture: moins on en a et plus on l'étale"...

So please spare Marmelade! LOL

Take Care

Surprise

Sometimes we think we know people and we don't...
And sometimes we think we know ourselves and we just don't... Is it good? don't know...
Is it normal? I think it only shows that life goes on and no Reality is fixed! Let's enjoy life and feel good! :)

Hugs and take care!

TIred

We can say that I am usually a very positive and enthusiastic person.
Have to say that due to the recent less positive moments I have had and also to the lack of rest have been making my "good" temper harder and harder to keep.

Today besides feeling really tired (exhausted would be the right word) I feel nervous!
Why do people think I have to have a maternal attitude towards my mother! The question is: what am I doing for the last 2 months? do I have then not to let her be alone ewver again?
I thought that at my age I should have my own life but apparently NO!!

The other question that comes into my mind would be: were I married, would people make all those questions? would everyone try to give all the advise???

Please could you for a little second think about MY OWN well being??? maybe I am being too demanding... I am a woman... afterall...

Take care and please stop judging the others

Another left

Apparently we are in a Dying period... After Mickael Jackson, my dad, I am going to another funeral tomorrow, and of course Patrick Swayze!

Rest in Peace PS as you deserve it after such a long suffering.

I have to thank you for all the wednesday afternoon I spent watching again and again Dirty Dancing and trying to do the same! I am sure that with a great teacher like you I could do much better than I did with my lamp! ... lol

Thank you for the dreams you inspired with your (2) films (the only ones I could remember) and for having inspired my teenager spirit for dancing and romantic stories. (mix of Ghost and Dirty Dancing)

RIP