TIred

We can say that I am usually a very positive and enthusiastic person.
Have to say that due to the recent less positive moments I have had and also to the lack of rest have been making my "good" temper harder and harder to keep.

Today besides feeling really tired (exhausted would be the right word) I feel nervous!
Why do people think I have to have a maternal attitude towards my mother! The question is: what am I doing for the last 2 months? do I have then not to let her be alone ewver again?
I thought that at my age I should have my own life but apparently NO!!

The other question that comes into my mind would be: were I married, would people make all those questions? would everyone try to give all the advise???

Please could you for a little second think about MY OWN well being??? maybe I am being too demanding... I am a woman... afterall...

Take care and please stop judging the others

Another left

Apparently we are in a Dying period... After Mickael Jackson, my dad, I am going to another funeral tomorrow, and of course Patrick Swayze!

Rest in Peace PS as you deserve it after such a long suffering.

I have to thank you for all the wednesday afternoon I spent watching again and again Dirty Dancing and trying to do the same! I am sure that with a great teacher like you I could do much better than I did with my lamp! ... lol

Thank you for the dreams you inspired with your (2) films (the only ones I could remember) and for having inspired my teenager spirit for dancing and romantic stories. (mix of Ghost and Dirty Dancing)

RIP

The other day I went to have a coffee (as 3times a day) and they gave me one sugar with a quote from a certain writter I cannot remember the name. I just found the sentence so cute and true that I should share it:

"I am looking for Someone to talk to. Someone who still knows how to smile"...

Let's try to think about the positive aspects of our lives as happiness is in our minds ans is never "real"(nothing is perfect)...

C U

Rest in Peace Dad.

No words...

I am going tomorrow... going to face the truth I tried to escape for too long now...
Even though I won't admit I know that I will have soon to speak about you in the past! I won't admit that I will miss you so much!
You are not perfect however you were allways next to me in bad and good moments... with you bad character, your non demago sentences but saying the truth or at least your reality without trying to be nice.
I learned to know you even though communication was not really our strength....
You taught me how to ride a bicycle, taught me to be demanding with myself 1st and then with the others, you taught me to be honest, look in the eyes and shake hands. How to be pride of myself just because it's me as long as I follow those old rules.
You protected me from my fears....

I learned to love you behond your bid defaults such as you did with me.
Learned how to respect your decisions even though I disagreed with them and be sure that this one is the hardest to accept but I have to...
This will be my last present to you... you are still here but I am afraid to say I already miss you.... Love you

PS- just for "fun" one of your favorite songs:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HGC003Xz3CY

Nostalgie

13 ans demain... 13 ans déjà et même si tout est passé je ne peux m'empêcher d'y penser.
J'y pense et sens une boule au fond de moi sûrement liée au regret et à l'amertume de voir mon Rêve brisé.. un rêve, un project qui semblait si simple impossible en réalité...
Je ressens un mélange de tendresse face à l'innocence des intentions, de la rage de m'en souvenir année après année et de m'être attachée à cette pensée...
Refaire des projects me semble aujourd'hui utopique... c'est le prix de l'innocence perdue...

Une fois de plus no regrets juste un peu de nostalgie

Birthday

Today is a very Important Day!
my little daughter, my little thing, my big Love, my everything is 4 years!!
She was born on June 24th, 05 and I only met her 3/4 months later!
Happy Birthday my Pirucinhas you already had your extra lunch!