4 years

I was to write a post about this aniversary on March 20th however times flies and inspiration was about zero! It is not much better now but this aniversary is too important for me not to write a single word about it.
It means for me a lot of good and bad points.
4 years ago I arriveds quite aware of the hard time I could pass through but with a dream with a lot of inocent stars in the eyes. I trully believed that my fairy tale was becoming true and that the well known sentence "and they lived happy forever and ever" was the part I was starting to live.
As you all know it was not really the case and I just miss the inocence I won't have again.
No regrets for the rest. Good and bad moments, memories but at least experience and a certainty: that was not what I expected and above all what I wanted.

I do belive that after a fairy tale it is hard to start something again, believe, trust, give, share, communicate just because we don't want to be hurt again but on the other hand it becomes easier to express what we really need.... that's the good point of experience.

Life will let me know whether I will stay here and also whtehr I can start now livng the fairy tale or if I still have to learn...

C U.
Music of the day:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JqrwxfvOwNQ&NR=1

Another Music

On the other day I heard this music that made me go back in time when lirfe was much diferent ... when I was in another country and still at the University... good times, good memories....
I needed to share it here...

ANOUK "Nobody's Wife"

"Nobody's Wife"I'm sorry for the times that I made you scream
for the times that I killed your dreams
for the times that I made your whole world rumble

for the times that I made you cry
for the times that I told you lies
for the times that I watched and let you stumble

It's too bad, but that's me
what goes around comes around, you'll see
that I can carry the burden of pain
'cause it ain't the first time that a man goes insane
and when I spread my wings to embrace him for life
I'm suckin' out his love, 'cause I, I'll never be nobody's wife

I'm sorry for the times that I didn't come home
left you lyin' in that bed alone
was flyin' high in the sky when you needed my shoulder

you're like a stone hangin' round my neck, see
cut it loose before it breaks my back, see
I've gotta say what I feel before I grow older I'm sorry but I ain't gonna change my ways

you know I've tried but I'm still the same
I've got to do it my own way It's too bad, but hey, that's me
what goes around comes around, you'll see
that I can carry the burden of pain
'cause it ain't the first time that a man goes insane
and when I spread my wings to embrace him for life
I'm suckin' out his love, I, I'll never be nobody's wife

It's too bad, but hey, that's me
what goes around comes around, you'll see
that I can carry the burden of pain
'cause it ain't the first time that a man goes insane
and when I spread my wings to embrace him for life
I'm suckin' out his love, I, I'll never be nobody's wife